You're going away again, already? It seems like you just got back. :(
But I'm sure you'll have a great trip. I wish you the best of luck with Kerry and everything...I really hope you get up the nerve to talk to him about everything you want to.
Those pictures are gorgeouss. Gahh, stupid bees!

Good luck with the Kerry thing. You should really take a stand for yourself. Although I know it's easier said than done. Look at the situation I'm still in with Tim, but then again we haven't had sex yet.

If I were you, I'd deny him sex just once to see his reaction. If he asks you what's wrong and such... that might be the start to the conversation you want to have with him. Plus it means that he cares about what you are feeling or thinking. Simply tell him your feelings. But in order to do that, you also have to be prepared for what he will say. Which we all know is the scariest part.

I really envy you because you get to travel so much. If I had the money, I'd pack up and leave for at least a year. Just see tons of places. Mind if I live vicariously through you? LOL.

Have fun girl!
K

wow that's amazing. your a great photographer =)

hope everything goes your way on the boat, I know you can do it, tell him how you feel, he deserves to know, and you deserve to hear his response.

have a safe trip doll.

Sorry I haven't commented in so long, but I'm finally getting caught up with your entries again! :) Anyway, this entry was interesting. It sounds like you're having a lot of fun in Rome. You're brave to be wandering out by yourself like that in a foreign place. I'd completely freak out if someone tried pickpocketting me.

I'm glad you haven't been thinking about Kerry much. You really deserve to enjoy yourself. :)

Wow! I am soooo envious of you! I want to see all of that stuff! I'm glad you're having fun and keeping your mind of Kerry!

Thanks for the comment and encouragement! I'm glad you had good vibes!  I wasn't so sure at first!

Rome will be awesome! Hope you have a great time!

haha it was a cruize my mother booked. It stopped first in the bahama's for a few hours, it was pretty much all rainy that day. the next day it went to cayman islands which are beautiful, than two days later we stopped in cuzu mel,mexico only to find it destroyed by the huricane, so the ship went to casa maya, mexico instead.

and yes seattle is beautiful.

yeah but Seattle isn't anywhere near as cool as Rome!! the only places I've been outside of the US is mexico, bahama's and the cayman islands!

Just reading your entries makes me want to plan a spontanous trip to aberdeen, even though I have no idea where it is, and I can't afford it lol.

I'm thinking another person that commented nailed the situation on Tim. Maybe he's wanting me to do all the work because he's lazy.... maybe insecure... who knows. But I guess I'll keep doing what I'm doing and see how it all pans out.

I would advise you not to wimp out though. Yes, ignorance is bliss sometimes, but not when it's also silently driving you crazy. Don't confront him in a way where he feels he needs to defend himself though. I always kind of do it in a joking but serious way. Hard to explain. I'm just lighthearted about it, and then I move on. From what I've heard, guys hate to be asked the same things over and over again, or have things thrown in their face all the time.

Anyway, I've gone off on a completely different tangent.

Best of luck with Kerry... not quite sure what to think on that one.

Hope you're staying cool!

K

god I didnt know thew pill could give ypu spots. I dont have many but a few, so I am lucky.

have you done my quiz?

Wow, good luck with the whole, getting the boat you want and keeping your flat. I know what you mean...I'm always kinda paranoid that I'm inconveniencing people.

I agree with the person below me, you deserve at least a "Hi" or something from Kerry while you're not on the boat. But at least you've been disillusioned. I really hope this all turns out well for you!

I really hope you believe that last paragraph and that you'll stick to it. Don't get me wrong, you do sound so much more resented with the situation between you and Kerry, but I would just hate to hear you cried after writing this entry.

I also read your other entry. Sorry for not commenting, I have been quite busy lately. I am long overdue on updating my diary too. It does seem he's getting closer to you and away from L. I just wish he'd send at least a Hi text message in between offshore trips. After all, he has your number, and you do exist in this "meantime". Personally, I believe you deserve at least a friendly text message.

Have a nice evening

he he that is well cool

did you do the same so he could watch you?

Welcome back!! I was just wondering about when you'd write again.

Aww, I'm so glad things took such a positive turn with Kerry!! Wow, he chose you over Linda twice? That's something to brag about. :)
Good luck with pursuing this whole thing. And congrats on the promotion!

that all sounds so super I am jealous when I am older i hope I can have that effect on men

Can I ask you what the thing was you asked for and he did the next night

thanks

I just got my second gradasil shot.  i think it's a good idea to get it.  even if you have HPV, you should still get it because there are many different types of HPV and if you have one type the shot will protect you from the others...

As for Kerry, relaspe is normal.  It's hard not to relapse.

Oh, don't be too hard on yourself for relapsing over Kerry. It's sure to take a while to get completely over him. But in any case, good luck with the trip...I really hope things go well.

Entries aren't any fun if they're not doom and gloom, silly. That's the whole reason any of us get on here at all. :P

I'm sorry your night out got cancelled. Ugh, one day, you'll find someone that'll keep your plans for nights out.
I got the Gardasil vaccination earlier this year. It was covered by our insurance, so that was nice.

I'm going to miss your entries and comments!! It seems like you just got back, and here you are, leaving us all again....

Wow...it's a shame that you didn't get to enjoy dry land a bit longer before being whisked away again...ugh, we'll miss you!!

No one could expect you to be fully over Kerry in such a short amount of time, but you're most definitely headed in the right direction, nonetheless. Even if you were disappointed that he didn't call, the disappointment apparently wasn't that big of a deal, if you can still say "oh well" about it. =) Keep up the progress.

Ha! I love the graffiti thing. Sometimes the smallest things can feel so good, mm?

Ooh, I felt so happy for you while reading this. It seems like you've learned a lot, and you really are starting to take a step in the right direction and move on. You deserve someone who will actually feel something for you, someone who knows you're special. I might be too optimistic, but from this, I don't think you'll have a relapse very soon. =)

I love your idea for a contest, by the way. =)

Sticking pins into the picture helps also. Just imagine your performing VooDoo .

I know.... Im demented..... but not really.

Be young and free while you can. Soon enough you will be tied down and wishing for the days of freedom!

I've found that when you take a stand and stop being a booty call that the guys tend to practically knock down your door because you have something that they want. They tend to try harder to to make you happy and not flit around with other chicks to prove how faithful they can be.

Then again, the best revenge is using him as a booty call and then kicking his @ss out of your cabin when you've got yours.

That's awesome that you basically get a free gym membership. Good luck with improving your health!

Oh, and I wish you the best of luck getting over Kerry. You're right, that probably would be nice.
And if someone gets you that crystal ball, can I borrow it next? :P

Thanks for the comment, by the way. That anecdote about your dream gave me some hope.  :)
Unfortunately, I don't have any bleachers nearby...but I might just resort to building my own, damn it.

It's nice to get a full entry from you again! :)
M5 sounds really nice, and you never know, maybe that spark will develop over time.
Oh yes, I've always been a believer in astrology. My horoscope is usually right. I can see the logic behind experimenting with Kerry, but please be sure that you won't feel anything.
Trust me, I feel the exact same way when I hold a baby. What you said about wondering what Mum's thinking really reminded me of myself.

That last part made me smile. :)

Hahaha, yeah, hotels aren't very generous with their internet access. But it's good to hear from you! I'm glad your trip is going well. You have to post the pictures on here when you get back!! :)

It sounds like Kerry doesn't know exactly if he wants a full relationship with you or not. Aren't women supposed to be the stereotypically  confusing ones?

WOW!!! There's a whole different world by the sea... and being away from Aberdeen, hence away from the source of all your worries will do wonders to you. Even while I was in France, I could see my life in Greece from an outer viewpoint and it definitely centered me (if you read my before France and after France entries, you know what I am talking about)! How long will you be gone?

Again, congrats on booking the Lanzarote. Enjoy it to the MAX

I have enjoyed reading your diary maybe you will read mine

Ive added you to my favouites if that is Ok so I can read the rest

Perhaps when you have read my entries you can give me advice especially as my bf comes home tonight.

I hope you have a great trip!! L2 sounds like a really good friend. And she's right...you can't let yourself fret over Kerry so much that you forget to enjoy yourself, you know.

And I'm certain J knew who you were because you are simply fab. :)

i agree with you. stay away from Kerry and even if he says he'll offer your more than just sex, I'd wait until he prove it until jumping into bed with him again.